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My name is Wu Yueqin, born in 1951. I am 71 years old this year and live in Lingyuan, Liaoning Province. My mother gave birth to four daughters. As her youngest daughter, I was showed more concern and affection by my parents. However, I got my mother killed due to my blind belief in the heinous “Falun Gong” cult, which left me with lifelong regrets.

In June 1997, a relative living in downtown area came to visit us and said that currently many people were practicing “Falun Gong”. The relative added that it was said the “Master” Li Hongzhi did possess “supernatural powers”, whose “Falun Gong” could help practitioners not only “clear up their bodies and cure diseases” but also “ascend to heavenly kingdom, achieve Perfection and bring good fortunes to the whole family” after practitioners reach a certain level. In sum, “one person in a family practicing Falun Gong would bring benefits to the whole family”. At that time, I thought it wouldn’t hurt to give it a try since I didn’t have much to do at home. Additionally, it would be good if it could help me keep fit and avoid misfortunes. And, it would be even better if it could really bring good fortunes to the whole family. With the idea of having a shot at it, I bought the book Zhuan Falun (Turn the Dharma wheel), a complete set of “lecture” videos, as well as Li Hongzhi’s portrait, and then started to practice.

After practicing “Falun Gong” for a period of time, I seemed to have found my spiritual ballast and emotional anchor. Therefore, I felt that, to a large extent, my body was free of tension and I became more energetic about my work, which gave me an illusion that “Falun Gong” did have marvelous effects. Afterwards, in order to achieve “further advancement” and “levelling-up”, I would always manage to practice sitting in meditation even when working in the field. Whenever I had time, I went out to exchange experiences with “fellow practitioners”. I also started to encourage my families, friends and colleagues to practice it with me. Under my constant persuasion, many people around me were turned into my fellow practitioners. Even my 70-year-old mother was slowly pulled by me into practicing “Falun Gong”.

In the following years, I was so obsessed with “Falun Gong” that I spent all my time to practice it, hoping that one day the “Master” could lead us to “Perfection” and “ascending to paradise”. If possible, I would stop taking care of crops in the field and household chores. So, it was common for my husband and children to find there was no meal prepared for them after they got back home. Although cabinets at home were all covered in a thick layer of dust and dirty laundries were piled up, I totally ignored them as if these chores didn’t exist. Gradually, my husband and children began to increasingly move to against my cultivation. But I didn’t care their opinions at all. Furthermore, I even complained about their lack of understanding of me. I believed that my practice could bring good fortunes to the whole family, not just to me. So, the sooner I achieved “Perfection”, the earlier my whole family could enjoy a better life.

In this way, my husband and children became more and more speechless to me, which was fine by me because I could wholeheartedly recite Zhuan Falun (Turn the Dharma wheel) or set my mind on how to level up without much interference. Many people around me simply thought that I must be mad. As my two sons reached the age of marriage, they didn’t have a chance to have a blind date, because girls would shake their heads right after the matchmaker mentioned my family and me. For that, my two sons were simmering with resentment towards me and both of them left hometown to work.

In July 1999, the state banned “Falun Gong” in accordance with laws. So, my family members were asking my mother and me to stop practicing “Falun Gong”. But I was convinced there was nothing wrong in practicing it. And I was also afraid that all our efforts would be wasted if the two of us gave up cultivation. Then, my husband asked relatives to help dissuade us from cultivating. We didn’t listen to them at all since our minds were fully occupied by fallacies such as “Karma elimination”, “further advancement” and “Perfection”. My husband was so angry that he had a terrible quarrel with me. But at that time, I thought the situation was a test from the “Master” for me, and I had to do whatever it took to resist pressure from the outside. Additionally, I urged a few close fellow practitioners not to give up, but to keep on practicing while waiting for the “Perfection”.

In October 2003, my mother had a cold which lasted for several days. Later, she even developed symptoms of coughing and fever. My family insisted on sending my mother to hospital for treatment. But my mother and I took a firm stand against the suggestion. We both believed it was the sign of “Karma elimination” so, there was no need to make a fuss. To avoid interfere with our cultivation, my mother refused to take any medicine. As for me, I invited fellow practitioners to come and gather around the bed on which my mother lay, “sending forth righteous thoughts” together with me and muttering ceaselessly things such as “Falun Dafa is good”, “Truthfulness, Compassion and Forbearance is good”, etc.

However, my mother’s condition didn’t improve at all. One night, my mother suddenly had symptoms of being short of breath and having purple lips. Seeing this, my husband jumped off bed and went out, seeking help to hurriedly send my mother to hospital. But I stopped him, and told him that everything was under control because she would be protected by the “Master”. I also added that her cultivation would be ruined if she was sent to a hospital. My husband was so furious at my words that he slapped me hard on the face and shouted, “Her condition is critical now, you fool! If you keep cheating yourself, you’ll regret.” After saying that, he fought his way past me and took my mother to a country hospital by car. Due to Mom’s perilous conditions, the country hospital immediately instructed a transfer to the county hospital. Although doctors at the county hospital made every effort to rescue my mother, it was too late. At 12:10 pm that evening, my mother passed away. According to doctors, my mother died of acute pneumonia caused by her prolonged cold which was not timely treated.

The death of my mother was a huge head-on blow to me. I just couldn’t understand how my mother, an “advanced Falun” disciple who should be protected by “Falun”, could end up dying of a small cold. One major reason why we chose to practice “Falun Gong” was that we were in pursuit of “magical power derived from Dafa”. I really wanted to confront Li Hongzhi face to face: where the “root” stemming from the universe was, and why the “law-bodies”   did not protect my mother?

For over six months, I lived in remorse and tears. I felt bitterly regretful whenever I thought of my mother who cared for me and loved me so much. Although it was “Falun Gong” that got my mother killed, it was me who should be held accountable as the chief accomplice who got my mother fall into clutches of the “Falun Gong” cult. If there was a slightest possibility to undo everything, I would sacrifice all I had to get it, but there was no such “if”. Now, I just hope that my mother could forgive me, her ignorant daughter.

Rest in peace, my dear mother.